To all of my dear Womb 2 Move Mummas and Friends,
I am a Midwife. When I get asked ‘What do you do?’ My answer is proudly that I am a Midwife. It is usually followed up with “Well I suppose I am a full time Mother and Part time Midwife”. If the conversations goes further I get as far as “I am a Midwife who teaches Pregnancy Yoga”.
My greatest joy as a Midwife is to watch a family unfold as a woman sheds her insecurities, finds her inner warrior and gives birth to her child. The woman doesn’t need to know the science but her Midwife does- that the exquisite cascade of hormones being released to encourage birth and provide pain relief are a result of her feeling safe to surrender to the process. That the movements and sounds she is making are coming from wisdom held in the deepest most primal part of her brain and this knowledge can only be accessed when she trusts herself and her baby. Even if there are surface doubt and anxiety, fueled by a society that tells her she isn’t strong enough… Deep down, she truly believes in herself.
Pregnancy is a time for women to gather all the information and support that they need in order to confidently head in to Childbirth and Motherhood. This is why I especially LOVE teaching childbirth education programs. I get to see men and women come in feeling nervous, anxious, even scared of the whole idea and leave feeling confident and LOOKING FORWARD to the occasion with love and wide eyes.
I have now taught Childbrith Education classes for 10 years. Four years ago I decided that I dearly wanted more skills to be able to incorporate the breath and movements that I learned in my personal Yoga practice into these childbirth classes. I undertook study to become a Yoga Teacher for Pregnancy (and early post natal months) and Womb 2 Move was born.
Over the past 4 years incredible numbers of amazing women (Over 700 of you!!) have trusted me to guide you through Yoga practice during your pregnancies and help you to prepare for Birth and Motherhood with confidence instead of fear.
I have loved every shared moment.
Sharing your trials and triumphs along the journey has be so very fulfilling for me as a Midwife and a woman. You have all become my Sangha- a community of like-minded women who have gathered together each week to share information and our journeys. I have learned so much!
While more and more of you have chosen to join the sangha, I have continued to add classes to the Womb 2 Move schedule to keep each group small and intimate.
Without realising, I have become a Full Time Yoga Teacher and under-prepared business owner and have no time left for being with families in during birth. I miss it dearly. On top of this I have tried to learn how to run a small business, what a hashtag is and how to fit in being a full time Mother. I am trying to work out if there is a way to be present enough in the digital world sharing empowering information to nurture my sangha, while wholeheartedly present with my children whenever they need or want me.
It feels like there are not enough hours in each day.
I have so many ideas for Womb 2 Move- I want to study more yoga philosophy, dive into yoga for fertility, offer classes for families and more birth preparation. But I cannot find the time to get this in motion.
I feel there is not enough time in the week.
I’d love to find a home for Womb 2 Move where we can spread our arms wide (literally!) and welcome women from refugee families, and young Mums into our sangha and raise funds to reach other women who cannot afford to pay for Yoga classes but so desperately need support.
But each month goes by and I feel overwhelmed that I have run out of time. Again.
After MUCH contemplation, searching and trying to find another way, I have decided to take a break from teaching weekly yoga classes for the moment. There will be no Womb 2 Move classes in term 3 and probably the remainder of 2019.
I understand that I will be letting down a lot of you who will still be pregnant in 5 weeks time and will need to find another place for your yoga practice. I know a lot of you have trusted me to be there for you each week during your pregnancies and were looking forward to bringing your new babies back to the group. I am sorry.
I need some time.
I want to reconnect with my Midwifery practice. I need to feel like there are enough hours in each week and be there for my sons when they get home from school. I would even love to find time for yoga for myself!!!
And after a break to find myself, I promise I will be working hard to find a sustainable way to take Womb 2 Move into the future with a new schedule (and help!) in 2020.
Thank you for your understanding.
Womb 2 Move Yoga